My fingers and toes were ice, but my face was flushed and hot. Wrapped in a blanket, wearing several layers, including socks and slippers, I could not get warm. The tell tale signs were like stealth fighters. spies on a covert mission. Try as I might to thwart them, I merely slowed their progress. The tactic changed. It was a full-on frontal assault, a barrage of symptoms wreaking havoc with my immune system.
Chills. Aches. Fever. Runny nose. Sneezing. Headache. Maybe the flu. Sick. Bleh.
I hate being sick. I especially hate it now that I’m a widow. Going to the store to get my own OJ and chicken noodle is no fun when my head feels twice its normal size. Being sick feels worse alone.
My first reaction is typically denial. “I’m not getting sick. I’m just tired. I have too much to do. Can’t get sick. I don’t feel well just because I think I don’t feel well. It’s all psychological.
Finally I give in and accept reality. “Ugh. I feel awful.”
To the couch I go, knowing rest is a primary need. I admit, initially it’s wonderful to alternate sleep with a movie marathon. Sometimes slowing down is a beautiful thing…
Read the rest of the story here at Intentional By Grace.
When Mercy Found Me 
Hope you are feeling better Ami…..Love you
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Yes thank you! Actually this post was due over a month ago. lol. So I’ve been well for awhile. I really appreciate the sentiment!
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I just read ”You Will Find Rest For Your Souls” through a link on Intentially Grace – which I received in my inbox. As a widow, I found your article to be insightful and comforting. I share in the emotions you feel especially in relating to times of sickness.
Since my husband’s passing, I too have felt an unction to write ( a passion I had laid aside in the ‘busyness’ of life ) and share my experiences. It is my prayer that God will use my life to bring comfort, grace, and wisdom to others is much the same way as He has through you. May God bless you richly for the comfort and joy you bring to others!
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Cheryl, thank you so much. I’m glad it was a blessing an encouragement to you. Yes, for me writing has been a major part of helping me to process. I’m glad that you want to write also! It really is a beautiful thing to comfort with the comfort I’ve been given. I think I’m still learning to be a writer. If you’re interested, you can also check out awidowsmight.org and look under the “become a guest writer tab”. I’m a team member for that site, so I’d encourage you to check out how to apply to be a guest writer. You never know, maybe they could use a post by you! God bless you as well! ~Ami
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Ami, love you so much my dear friend!
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Aww love you too 🙂 So glad you’re in my heart!
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