Rejecting Imaginary Days

There is no such thing as imaginary days.

By God’s grace, the barrage of lies has subsided. It used to be daily that I would awaken to immediate grenades and atom bombs, but now the attacks are rare. The truth of the gospel has continually defeated them. “It’s true, I am a wretch. But back off Satan. Jesus has defeated you.”

Yet, occasionally there is a different stealth tactic. Minor side note: I smile at myself for using military analogies when I know I’d be a blubbering mess at the first hint of a sharp command. But I digress.

Sometimes the stealthy lies are accusations, but sometimes they are questions. Recently the lie was “What if God took Jon because He knew Jon would flake out? Did He see future days where my husband wouldn’t have passionately pursued Christ?” You can imagine the sorrow surrounding those thoughts.

But God used a friend’s profound words to permanently defeat that lie. “There are no such things as imaginary days.” For imaginary days reflect an inaccurate view of God’s sovereignty.

Therefore, what ifs and imaginary days reside with Santa Claus and the Tooth Fairy.

If God planned the last day of Jon’s life, then there were no more days! They didn’t exist. How quickly and how marvelously those words penetrated my heart. There were no more days. David had something to say about this in Psalm 139:

“For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.” (v13-16)

How freeing it is to reject the lie of imaginary days! I rest knowing that God chose the best for Jon and for me. I rest believing that God didn’t foresee some egregious failure, and therefore decided to “take him out.” I rest knowing God developed him into the man He wanted him to be. Jon dying at the height of his earthly walk with Christ was in God’s plan from eternity past. Even more beautiful to me is that Jon’s spiritual decline lies merely in the realm of the imaginary. In God’s sovereignty, it didn’t exist.

By grace Jesus was the BEST thing to Jon, but my husband stilled failed. He was still a sinner, but a sinner covered by Christ’s righteousness and greatly loved by God.

The truth is that the completed work of Christ not only cancelled out the record of debt against him, but also imparted ALL of Christ’s righteousness to him. The $50 word for that is justification. God was also transforming Jon to become what he was already declared to be. And this is sanctification.

Another friend shared the imagery of a line graph. The line may have some zig zags, but over the course of time there’s always an upward and forward trend. I love that! A believer’s sanctification is ALWAYS forward. The idea of two steps forward, four steps backward is just heresy. Furthermore, God always completes the work He starts (Philippians 1:6).

And so at death, the work of sanctification in Jon had reached it’s proper perfection. He got to trade sanctification in for glorification. Never ending new. Spotless. Perfect. That’s  awesome.

All that to say, I’m learning to reject imaginary days. And not just the imaginary days of Jon’s life, but the what ifs and the imaginary days of mine.

I’m not guaranteed future days, but if they come, they will be the real days of God’s plan, rather than the ones I create in my mind. Of this I am certain, in joy and in sorrow, in trial and in triumph, God’s real days will be BEST. They will be ridiculously better than the feeble products of my imagination.

God orders my days. He knows His plans for me. Therefore, I rejoice in THIS day, a real day given by God.


7 thoughts on “Rejecting Imaginary Days

  1. Hi Aimee,
    Thank you for your ministry and testimony to so many. I still remember your senior testimony in society. You said you had never really struggled with being willing to serve the Lord, but your struggle right then was surrendering to serve Him alone. At the time, there were no “prospects” on the horizon, and you were testifying to the Lord’s grace in enabling you to say yes even to a life of singleness if that was his plan. That resonated at the time with me as we are so prone to think that we are surrendered to God’s will when in fact we are just prepared to do what service seems attractive to us. I thought of your testimony again when I got your FaceBook announcement of your engagement to Jon, and I was thrilled for you to have found someone with whom to serve God. Of course, I thought of your words in that society meeting when I learned of Jon’s death, and I just wanted to let you know that, as I have followed your published journey here and on FaceBook, I always think of how the Lord is enabling you to continue to serve Him in whatever situation He has for you. Your honest description of grace’s sufficiency in even the hardest of times gives encouragement and confidence to any believer–even those who have never faced trials of this magnitude. May the Lord continue to bless you and the many ministry opportunities opening up for you.
    Andrea (Jeffcott) Crocker


    1. Andrea, thank you so much for taking time to write. It’s incredible that you remember that Senior testimony. I didn’t even remember it, though I definitely know singleness was my major struggle! It is true that God taught me much through the single years, and is teaching me now through a different type of singleness. Thank you for your encouragement. It is truly remarkable to me how God continues to carry me. I see grace in a totally different light. He is doing a marvelous thing, even if I can’t see it all right now. Thank you again!.


  2. Thanks, Ami. So sorry I spelled your name wrong in the last comment. =) I knew it wasn’t the conventional spelling, but I should have double checked. I’ve got it now. =) Blessings!


    1. Becca, thank you for sending me the link. God’s mercy is so good. He knows the times of each of us and holds them in his hands. If it would bless this girl to have someone to talk to, I’d be happy to give her my contact information! You can send me a message on facebook if she wants it. Also, please let her know that I will truly be praying. I know the depths and also what lies ahead. I’m often still amazed how how marvelously God has carried me. I have grieved deeply, but also been comforted deeply as well. I’m so thankful that He’s brought me to the place where I know there is “next” and “special” Thank you for continuing to pray! with love, Ami


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